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I was on the bus. As usual, it was a long ride home. My eyes were closed, trying to force myself to rest due to the amount of work I did, and still have to do. Many thoughts flashed passed my mind, they were very random thoughts. Then, something caught my attention.

This issue has been on my mind for quite a while, hidden somewhere deep inside my brain. This is about my future. I was too caught up with doing so many things and making myself busy that I just realised I still have 1 more year to go, to graduate. Where would I want to go? What should I do after that? I suppose the right path to go is to enter university but something tells me that this is not what I wanted. I frowned.

Graduating with a diploma wouldn’t get me anywhere far. It is so competitive out there and there are far more people who are smarter than me, more knowledgeable and with higher qualifications. Forcing myself to do something that I don’t like, will be stupid because this will be my career in near future. I can predict my results if I were to enter university, it will go downhill.

Many people around me want to enter university and they worked so hard to achieve a good result. Sometimes I wished I am like them, having the determination to study hard so I can earn more money next time. I pondered really hard because I believe this decision will change my life. My results were average. It was never fantastic all along. I do topped my class once a while but that is pretty much I’ve got. I have to admit doing well in examinations give me a sense of achievement but I guess I am not the “study material”.

The bus jerked and for a moment, it interrupted my train of thoughts. Then I started thinking about my GPA. When I was in year 1, all I ever think of is to play and have fun. My results reflected everything. Now that I am in year 2, I see many people doing well and the pressure is on. I am definitely more hardworking now and I see my GPA improving. In fact, it improved by quite a fair bit. However, to be enrolled into local universities one’s GPA must at least be 3.65, which is a big problem for me. Even if I worked really hard to achieve a 4.0 GPA for 2 semesters, my cumulative GPA could not get me into a local university. I sighed. I wished I was more hardworking last year.

I wouldn’t want to go overseas to study because it will cost a bomb. My parents are not earning that much and I don’t want to give them an additional burden. All I can hope now is that I perform well in a company which i entered after graduation and hope they will send me to further my studies.

My new clothes.

I took photos of it when it arrived..about 1 week ago? But i kept forgetting to upload them. 

All from F21 online :)

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