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During some alone time with myself, i always think about my life. As in what happened in the day etc. Sometimes i feel that i'm quite nonsensical. I tend to overreact at times, and my behaviour/reaction towards certain issues were definitely uncalled for. Yet, i couldn't help it. All i can say is that i can't think properly at that point of time. I wonder how can the people around me tolerate me and my bullshit. Frankly speaking, i'm grateful for them, all of them. I don't want to take my loved ones for granted, but i guess sometimes i just don't know how to really express myself. It's not an easy task. How often do you tell your loved ones (excluding boyf/girlf) then you love them a lot? Probably just once in a while. Idk about you people, but i do imagine my loved ones leaving me sometimes (scary i know). I really fear the arrival of this day. I don't want anybody to leave me.

I want to change, to become a better daughter, a better sister, a better girlfriend, a better friend, a better gugu, a better classmate(?). I don't know how am i supposed to start, probably start from being nice and not get irritated so easily. I need to learn to appreciate the people around me.