I'd talk to my boyfriend about his exes and about mine too. Like randomly i will ask him questions about them, not because their existence threaten my r/s but because i want to know more about him. So i have absolutely no problem with talking about our past in front of other people as well. In fact, i'm cool with it. We're actually at the point of the r/s whereby we can come clean to each other and talk about everything under the sun. He's not only my boyfriend, but he's my best friend and he's like a family to me.
If you look at the way we communicate, we are not like those very sweet or romantic couple. We talk to each other like best friends and sometimes we are very crude to each other. lol but we're sweet in our own ways. We wrestle on bed, call each other names like bitch, idiot, bastard etc, we do bicker, nag at each other, tell each other lame jokes and annoy each other. If you ask him whether i'm gentle or not, his immediate reply will be no. LOL. but we are happy that way and every single day we'll be laughing about stupid things.
We used to celebrate our monthsary like every month in the beginning of our r/s but now (since our 1st year) i made him stick to celebrating it once every 6 months. By celebrating, i mean giving present (the present you saw on the 25th monthsary post is actually a present for our 2 year cos i don't have time to get it). He grumbled like mad cos he says it's sweeter to celebrate every month. Haha how sweet can he be? But he still listened to me in the end. People asked me, "Don't you get bored of him?" I used to say sometimes i do feel sian. But now when people ask my answer is a no. In fact i look forward to seeing him because i feel happy with him. He treats me like a little princess hehe.
To be frank i didn't really pin a lot of hopes in this r/s hence i admit right from the start i didn't really love him as much as he did. I was trying to safeguard my heart just in case he's going to break it. I didn't want to have my heart broken (duh!) so i always remind myself not to fall deeply. Afterall all guys are jerk, thats the truth so don't argue. I built walls around my heart and shut him out completely. But time and time again he proved me wrong, he was there for me all these while. He was there when i threw tantrums, he was there when i needed someone, he was there when i brushed him off, he was there when i was being unreasonable. Most importantly, he was still there when i said i wanted a break-up just because i want to be single.
I can always find him when i need someone. He always send me to work on my first day and wish me good luck even if it means waking up early and then travelling back home again. He doesn't mind coming all the way down to my house i just randomly tell him that i am bored. He doesn't mind going the extra miles for me if it makes me happy. He traveled to somerset 313 to get the dress i wanted and traveled back to TP to surprise me. He went to waterloo street to buy indian rojak & get a cup of koi and then back to school again to pass to me because i said i was craving for them (fyi i got mad at him cos i have to carry that to class after that and back home but he didn't even scold me. He still apologised to me for buying them wtf.).
He's the reason why we are still going on strong
So i slowly open up my heart and begin to let him in, & it took quite a while for me to do that. All i can say now is that i don't care if i fall too deeply in love because love isn't love if you try to control it. If next time things really happen (choy) and we may go separate ways, i'll have no regrets. We've had many happy times together and i'll keep these memories in my heart. For every failed r/s, you learn from your mistakes and slowly you will find the right guy. I might build higher walls to guard my heart next time, i might not have a boyfriend for a super long time, i might turn into a lesbian who knows? Just live your life to the fullest everyday and stay happy. You don't know when are you going to lose everything you have.
We're only together for 25 months and i alrd feel that it isn't easy for us to come this far (all cos of me) so i really salute couples our age, who are together for 4years and above. I hope all of us have found our right one alrd and may we still be this blissful and sweet forever :)
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